Its been a few months since ive used the site and i think its time to get back into the flow of things. Although i havent taken any vacation from my art i have been taking one away from being serious about it. Dont get me wrong, its still my career choice, but its gonna be a while until i get to an actaul art school.

Let me just review the past few months in which this newfound adulthood has cuaght me by surprise. ...kind of like being shot in both your kneecaps and told the run the marathon.

Currently, this would be my senoir year hadnt i tested out. I decided to graduate early seing as thoguh i was aready 18, had a deadline to move out that day, and another 6 months to go in highschool. fuck that. I believe those 6 extra months would have been more dentrimental to my art career than helpful. We all know how very very very hard it is to ace the GED, and i passed with flying colors after putting much thought into which one was the triangle.

I moved out with my boyfriend/ best friend into a tiny room that im surprised holds our immense amounts of crap. Unfortunately at the house the people keep dogs, who have an equal amount of resentment for us as we do for them. Except when it turns to a burning hatred when they crap in out bathroom and in front of our door....ill kill them one daY...or just move out.

Romantically things are good, have been good, and seems to be staying good for the future. This is my freist functional relationship and i really like where this is going. Perhaps one day i shall post the giant romantic fairy tale in which i we realised we should date eachother....i swear to god it could have been a movie from the 80s.

I cut my hair again...and died it black...again. It feels a littel strange becuase i havent had bangs since i was 10...only this time its more acceptable becuase im sporting the 20s flapper look, which can also be seen on uma therman from Pulp Fiction.

I quit smoking.

Ive been a dancer for two months now and i love the fact the money is never a problem anymore. The only thing to be stressed out about is wether or not i save a ton of cash every month. Another perk is its a constant workout. so ive become alot more fit. Not only a few days ago i grabbed my own arm to discover solid lean muscle....i scared myself.

They may be another move in the future becuase the love is going to college in another area which is convientely closer to my work. Not only will we be pickign up another roomate or two...but since the apartment will be in his name, off campus housing split between 4 people for about 500 is gonna rock.

Car is still old and stupid. Car insurance is even dumber. you almost regret having it if your such a good driver you never get into accidents.

I quit alot of people i considered friends just recentlybecuase i realised they were shit people...i guess thats whats growing up does to you...allows you to see through others bullshit. but i being very positive about it. i dont think ive lost anything. Ive just cut away negative forces in my life ive had for years.

Life is not hard right now...things are actually very laid back and survival has been smooth althgouh sudden. Still...i cant wait for the college thing but that will come when my work is good enough. Im happy, rent is paid, bills are paid and i have a warm, handsome man to fall asleep next to every night. I reccomend all of you to go out a date a philoosphy major, they are the most undersatnding, wonderfully deep, thgouhful people EVER!

FUN FACTS-

1. i killed a $400 chiwawa this week

2. ive become addicted to TUMS

3. John Constantine is what we call a "hellblazer"

4. Valentines day is also known as "national singles awareness day"

5. Hatred will keep you warm at night.